{..::Topic::..}: Annoyances and wishing tests didn't exist

Well I wrote my test or exam or whatever you want to call it. Personally I prefer horrible-life-draining-bullshit but that's me. Needless to say it was massively brutal. Even that seems like an understatement. It just makes me more mad thinking about it now. I pretty much failed it, which completely sucks. Now I have to met with the instructor and crap *rolls eyes* 'cause you know I just am dumb and stuff. Seesh. Okay maybe, just maybe she'll be able to help but I doubt it. It's just way too much information for me to know and study. I just can't wait for the exam in November (gee, can you hear the sarcasm there?). I'm literally pulling out my hair right now due to frustration. Ugh!!! I'm far too stressed and emotional right now. I even hung up on my mom after school. How bad is that? I'm just mad and annoyed. These tests are made up of stupid questions, we're told certain things aren't on the test and wouldn't you know it like 10 questions at least were on the stuff we didn't know or were told weren't included. That's what pisses me off. Whatever those. Clinical instructors should just burn, that's it! Then techs are complaining we're reading to much (studying because the ward is dead but that's inconsequential obviously, it just means we're lazy and stuff). I'm really questioning why I'm in the program right now. GRRR!! *deep cleansing breath...* Then not only did we not get to write the test first thing in the morning we decided to have an hour long discussion before the test, so we didn't even start until 10am, how messed up is that???!?!?!?! That's twice they've screwed us over. Not to mention that at all sites they get regular classes. Bitches!! *another deep cleansing breath*.....

So our exchange ended today. Our student left to go back to Switzerland today. It was sad though. He was a good kid, except for all the porn sites visited. I didn't get to say good-bye though. That kind of upset me because he was like another brother and I didn't get to say bye or anything. I wrote a little thing on the card we gave him, but it's not the same. All because of that stupid test I didn't get to see him off or say good-bye. DAMN you RRC!!! But now the computer is mine. mwwhahahaha. Of course I still expect him to come around the corner and stuff but sadly it'll be like he was never here. It's really strange to go near his room and see it so empty. It's hard and sad but at least he enjoyed his experience, even though he didn't exactly see much 'cause he was lazy but whatever :)

Ever notice how when you're studying, someone just has to come around and ruin it for you? Well I swear for this test I was doomed not to study. I had visitors stopping by all weekend, Japanese exchange students coming in and out, phone ringing off the hook since Friday and all this crap. So of course studying was pushed by the wayside and boy did I pay for that. But it's not like I didn't study, I just didn't thoroughly study what the test mostly consisted. But out of 8 courses, how do you decide which is more important to know or what? Whatever. Any ways, I sitting at the kitchen table (away from all distrations I might add) and of course my dad decides "Hey, I think I should clean up the kitchen and make as much noise as I can." Worst is he told me to leave because he'll make too much noise. Well where the hell was I supposed to go and study? GRRR!!! MEN!!!! It's times like that where I wish I never get married. I had to put up with more than hour of clanking and scrubbing and telling me to go to bed that I'd studied enough (obviously I was right in telling him I wasn't after the results). GRRR! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! All I ask for is quiet and leave me alone when I'm studying. But not even that was respected, totally pissed me off last night. But I digress...Tomorrow is another day and hopefully it will be a million times better than today (that would just involve not misty when exiting the school). Man I need a vacation...


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{..::current..mood::..} Pissed off, exhausted, depressed and weepy all mixed in together
{..::currently..reading::..} Nothing, after all that studying I can't but I should be reading
{..::currently..watching::..} nothing...but I was watching a program on Pompeii and Mount Vesuvius
{..::currently..listening::..} "One Thing" Finger Eleven