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I Need a Vacation from this Life

Ever have those days where it just seems like you need a vacation from yourself? Or even better yet you're just so tired of your every day life you want out of it? (not in a I'm-going-to-kill-myself sort of way more of a this-sucks-and-where-has-my-life-gone-oh-yeah-down-the-tubes). Lately I just feel my life slipping away from me, just like sand in an hour and those are the days of my life, oh sorry got off track. As I was saying, I just constantly feel like that. Maybe I need help *shrug* who knows. Just frustrated with a lot of stuff right now. Maybe it's stress of exams. Which brings up another good ramble.

Tests. I was thinking of how much I hate tests. Sure they test your knowledge and prepare us for the big huge national exam a year from now but they suck. I have such a hard time concentrating and getting my ass in gear to study. It's just awful. Many moons ago I used to be able to study and study and study until all I did was study. Now it's like 'oh I know this' or 'yeah yeah yeah, I get the gist of this' or best of all 'they wouldn't ask us this.' Ugh!I know these aren't made to ruin our lives but it sure feels like it at times. Especially when you're the type of person I am that has issues with multiple choice tests. I either get all confused or choose the wrong answer. I swear I can narrow it down to two and no matter what I choose the wrong one. No joke, no lies no nothing. I just utterly hate them. I know what I'm doing, but on tests that's another issue. Maybe I have a learning problem, then again maybe I just don't read my questions good enough (good possibility there). But it's not like we just have a test. It's like working a full time job (with no pay) and you have to study on your own time and we don't get any classes (which sucks when other classmates at other hospitals are getting up to 3 classes a week). Sure we're getting more hands-on training but it's the big national that will determine if we get certified or not, but whatever. Ok so ends my rant of studying...just know it's horrible.

Ok *exasperated sigh* got that off my chest. Now for more interesting rants and ideas. I've stopped watching soaps since school started last year, not to mention they all became incredibly stupid but I still sort of keep track of what's happening and I must say how greatly saddened I am to see how the new head writer at "DOOL" is ruining that show. Sure the show has been going downhill for years but to kill of at least 4 people, 3 of which have been with the shows for many many years. I just don't get that. Fans were dying for Jack to come back he comes back and bam! he's killed off. Stupid Reilly. I don't think a huge serial killer will bring the show back, it'll just kill the show. Seeing how that show plans to drag this storyline out for another year (rumored), I can't honestly see it gaining ratings, unless you count the negative numbers. I just shake my head at it all, I think I'd rather just see Marlena possessed by the devil again, rather than see the show kill of people, regardless of how little or how much we see them. But c'est la vie. So ends my rant for now...if I feel I need another vent I shall return, until the next time....be scared!!

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{..::current..mood::..} a point at which banging my head would barely faze me...maybe a little emotional, and I want ice cream
{..::currently..reading::..} "pursuit"
{..::currently..watching::..} my life pass me by
{..::currently..listening::..} my life passing me by (ok ok it's "fall of grace" by Sarah McLachlan)

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So much to do, soo little time

So I've finally gotten a chance to post something, finally. I swear this whole experience is wearing thin right now. Either the computer is taken at all times and I can't get on or there are 20 people in the room making it impossible to post things or do homework. It's just really frustrating right now for me. So much to be done and I'm not able to accomplish it because there is only one working computer, in which I have access to. Oh well I digress..

Well I saw my awful doctor's appointment last week and finally a doctor who doesn't think I'm all nutty in the head. She totally understood how I felt about certain things and told me there's hope, yay doctor! Now hopefully the liver specialist well do as my doctor predicted then I'll be one happy individual, but I digress.

I think that is all, I'd love to rant more about everything that is bothering me right now, but I don't have the time nor strength for that sort of endevour so I shall save that for another time.

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{..::current..mood::..} pretty blue and feeling like crap (which isn't out of the ordinary)
{..::currently..reading::..} "pursuit" and something x-ray worthy (surprise, surprise)
{..::currently..watching::..} 'CSI' from last week
{..::currently..listening::..} nuffin

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The power of self-cleaning houses and clothes

something came up ... will post later

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{..::current..mood::..} exhausted and hope to never see dirt again
{..::currently..reading::..} "Pursuit" and "Broken Wings"
{..::currently..watching::..} nothing...tv's boring lately
{..::currently..listening::..} oldies on the radio

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Monday, Monday

Another day has passed. Nothing interesting occurred. I did get another competency, yay! I wish I had gotten a fourth one, but I'll get it this week, mark my words. I was a little surprised today though. Someone who was sort of "shunning" me was acting all syrupy with me, something is fishy there. I'll keep an update on that, I'm sure there is something there and I'll figure it out. But my class does want a little study group, which I don't think will work. Personally they never work for me, but they did sort of think I was irrational when I said I didn't know if I'll join. I'll go to the first one, but if it doesn't work I'll say "see ya," and that will be it. I'm giving it a chance but I don't think I'll say. Sure it might help more by quizzing eachother but I doubt the whole time will be on quizzing but more on conversation. We'll see, I just have little faith in that group that all. Not to mention that those kinds of groups always make me feel more stupid, so I don't really feel like subjecting myself to that. We'll see though, that's all I can say. Plus I'm getting a little nervous about logbooks. I thought I could just bring my already signed off cards and stuff, no I have to bring those on top of 12 cases to be signed off. I don't think I'll have enough for next log book, ack! I'm getting a little more stressed. Doesn't help that people keep bringing up the test in a few weeks. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! *baby C running around the room pulling out her hair* But I digress...

Hmmm, I really miss my rural site and the funny annotations I was able to put here. Nothing funny ever happens here now. No funny conversations or anything. It's all tight-lipped-ass-clenched-we're-not-here-to-have-fun crap! Plus the techs were for the most part just much nicer. That's my opinion though. Any ways, time to relax before I start on homework...toodles


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{..::current..mood::..} Thrilled to be home, yet slightly bored
{..::currently..reading::..} "Broken Wings" by VC Andrews
{..::currently..watching::..} Nothing, although I can hear the japanese student is watching "the core" next to me
{..::currently..listening::..} "White Flag" by Dido

Hehehe I was just leaving the site when the most hiliarious thing came on tv. Seeing I'm watching The Beverly Hillbillies and they were watching some soap opera or whatever it was and they are talking about x-rays. Well I looked on the tv and this x-ray was the funniest thing I'd ever seen. It's completely clear in the center and such (where the heart is and stuff). Sure these x-rays are many years old, it's still hiliarious to see now that technology has changed so much over the years. That is all...

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And history repeats itself...

So starts another lovely journey in the world of exchange students. From what I could gather another "internation scandal" is being prevented. Got to wonder about this whole exchange program at times. Why are some perfectly matched and others make you wonder what someone was smoking at that time. Boy oh boy.

I've come to the conclusion that school sucks. The way I look at it, I have to study 24 hours a day to get good marks so that I can get hired. Then I have to work for years after that and try to fit in a family, friends and whatever else. Then I retire. Wouldn't it be great if I could skip the whole studying and go straight to retirement, but without the aging. I can see it know and it's fabulous. *sigh* Ok no more I wishes.

Today while I carrying my dog around I had this strangest feeling wash over me. I hate when that happens. It was like I was holding a baby and I was in my thirties and it was sunny out (when in reality it was cloudy and drizzling). Strange, n'est pas? Maybe I'm psychic??? No? Right, that's right, I'm psycho... -cho not -chic! Which reminds me of the recent déjà vu occurances. Ever wonder why we get those? I thought of that today too. I get these from time to time but lately they've been occuring more frequently. Strange, or maybe something big is going to happen... hmmmm...

Now for the infamous quiz portion of the entry:

"You must remember this, a kiss is still a kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A classic story of love in trying times, chock full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously believe in true love, but you're also constantly aware of practicality and societal expectations. That's not always fun, but at least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis get you down too much.


What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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How much of a pottymouth are you?

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{..::current..mood::..} Feeling sorry for my poor poor mommy
{..::currently..reading::..} Merill's Radiographic positioning (yes I know...study study study)
{..::currently..watching::..} Bewitched (did you know they tape her nose wriggling in slow motion then sped it up to make it look like she was wriggling it quickly?)...but it eventually became the Beverly Hillbillies (yee-haw!)
{..::currently..listening::..} "Someday" Nickelback

{Topic} Comeuppances are funnier than hell

Today was hiliarious. I quite enjoyed the evilness that I am. Med Rad Barbie sure was taken down some notches today and it was hiliarious. I was laughing on the inside and acting all nice on the outside. Goes to show you can't take everything so personally or you'll get fried. Ok that sounds harsh but after the hell she put me through intentional and unintentionally it was nice.

But yay one more day until the weekend! YAY! Just another 8 hours of work tomorrow and I'll have two days away from those freaks, yippee skippeeee. Football right after school, is always fun, plus I'm dragging Boducky with me, woo hoo. Then on Sunday we plan on going to Grand Beach, where I'm dragging Boducky and hopefully a few others along. It shall be a grand 'ol time, yee haw. LOL (okay I'm aware I'm a little giddy that the weekend is almost here). Of course in retrospect I'll regret when the weekend ends because next week is doctor appointment. I can't hardly wait. LOL. That will be quite enjoyable.... NOT! But still happy weekend is almost here.

On another note I was looking at my blog yesterday and noticed that links related to my site or whatever list allergies, isn't that interesting? I don't remember talking about allergic to most of the food in the world but quite funny. But what was even more hiliarious was the fact at some times Mensa quizz links are related. Personally that is hiliarious because my brother and I have an inside joke between us on how my children are going to be idiots and walking into walls. Whereas his kids are going to be Mensa kids. It doesn't sound as funny as it actually is but if you heard the whole story you'd understand. So I just find it funnier than anything. But I digress...

An update from last night. I started to watch the new Survivor and I just can't get into it. Of course I wasn't giving it my full attention but still it just didn't seem all too interesting. Sure there is a lot of nudity already and there seemed to be a few funny moments, it still didn't really seem like a show I want to watch. I'll give it some time because I don't usually get hooked until a few episodes in the season, but regardless I won't cast my final vote yet. I'll give it another 2 or 3 episodes then deem it either worth or unworth of my attention.

So that ends my rant for now.

{current mood} Feeling much better after my phone conversation...mwhahahaha
{currently reading} Anatomy and Physiology (blah blah blah...school never stops!)
{currently watching} Surivivor Pearl Islands
{currently listening} "We Don't Need Another Hero" Tina Turner

{Topic} Quizzes...all rejoice

Which "Friends" Character are you?

You've got a little bit of Monica going on!

Mon! You're the normal one, honey, in the best way possible. You're caring, you're responsible, you look to the future. What a gem. Wait a second, did you just start editing for grammar mistakes in the middle of reading your own compliments? (courtesy of emode.com)



You're Ursula from The Little Mermaid!
^^Which Disney Movie Villian?^^brought to you by Quizilla


Cinderella!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Boo it's only Wednesday, grr

So I've decided computers are evil. Maybe there really is an amish conspiracy in existance. My evil computer keeps freezing on me. I rarely get the computer as of lately and all it keeps doing is shutting down on me and I lose stuff, argh! But I digress.

Well today was a nastily busy day. Just horridly busy all day. Everytime I turned around I was being sent in the other direction, ACK! I don't want to see another day like that for a while. Ok I just wish life were a constant weekend, now that was be sweet.

I'm sitting here feeling my brain cells commit suicide. It's just mind numbing how retarted Big Brother is. These people are just retarded. Why would you subject yourself to this for a bit of money and lots of humility. I just don't get these people. On that note survivor premiers tomorrow. I haven't decided if I want to subject myself to that show for another season. I don't know, all of these reality shows are treading on thin ice with me. They are no longer original but carbon copies of the preceding one.

I guess I have nothing interesting to say, what a shock. lol I live the life of boredom. But I'm off... toodles

{current mood} Wishing it were Friday night and not Wednesday
{currently reading} Radiographic Imaging (ugh)
{currently watching} BB4 (boy that show sucks)
{currently listening} "This Woman's Work" Kate Bush

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The girl sitting in the corner with the dunce cap

Wow it sure has been a while since I posted here but I have my reasons. First of all AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH [this is the sound of me pulling out my hair in frustration]. Phew, enough of that. I feel better now.

So let's talk about last post's subject of cliques and how they suck. Let's see I used to have a carpool but then I was sort of rejected because I was too much of a hassle to take home, but I should continue to get rides to school and pay $9 a week for the 3 rides a week. Does that make sense to you the general public? I think not! Just pisses me off. Two weeks of this bull funky, and I've had it up to here *draws a line way way above her head* ugh! Then of course all the back talking, like I don't know what going on seesh. Some people out there, anything to just make themselves look and feel better. But at what cost I ask you, what cost??!?! Ok I digress. Still since all this shite has gone down, the little twosome clique formed and somehow I'm the enemy go figure. Clique just suck! They always have and always will, I will stick by that! GRRR! Whatever school is not social it's so I can make millions of dollars and marry a rich sucessful doctor/surgeon (lol just kidding, although that would definitely be a perk of the education) *grin* But I digress... really I do.

Ok so what have I been up to lately? Other than being an emotional mess, studying for my test from today. I've decided that I need informative layouts. What percentage this course is represented on the test, so on and so forth. It's horrible when anything goes because you're bound to study more one area more than another and of course the area you didn't focus on so much is a larger part of the test. Grr. Ironic, don't you think? So yeah, not enough studying, but I still think I did good, so yay. Maybe I can relinguish (sp?) my title of the girl in the corner with the dunce cap, well just for now anyways.

So update on the japanese student exchange. It's a hoot. Our student is so cute. I call him the "good son" in comparasion to my brother (obviously he's the bad son). So polite, respectful and everything, really makes you see how manners have gone by the way side in North America. It's a shame actually. I find it really funny when during dinner my dad always (without a doubt) asks the student a question while he's eating. I find it just hiliarious. But it's so much fun. But one thing I have yet to understand or figure out is the student's fixation with Disney movies. Our student watches on average two a day (I'm sure he's almost done our collection), it's really cute actually. Oh and today we took him and another student to a oriental market in the city and oh my god was that a hoot. Both of them were in a sort of heaven. They just lightened up and everything. I think we spent almost an hour in this little store. But it had imported food from Japan so it was great for them. So far knock on wood this experience has been great. Especially in comparasion to the last student we hosted 4 years ago *shudder* that was awful.

hmm what else, oh yay I finally finished updating my other website. I am so proud of myself. I've been working on that for quite a few months, but I'm happy to say the two layouts are great and Boducky's stories were a great addition. Now if only I could add a few more pieces of work, I'd really be pleased. Oh and I'm so excited my mom bought my Alias the first season. I was just so excited last night when I found it. Of course I had all night to watch it, but I didn't, go figure. There's always tomorrow!

Ok one more rant for the day. Know what really sucks? Arriving for your test and having to really hurry because there were so many traffic hold ups to learn that the test has been posponed for a few hours because half the test is missing in action. That was lovely. Got to love the organization of that. I didnt' have any notes to study because silly me didn't think I'd need them, when infact I had a few hours to study before the test. Grr. That was frustating. Just added more to pulling out of my hair. I'm telling you if all this shite continues I'll be bald by the time I'm 22.

So that ends this rant for the day. Now it's off to watch Angel season 1 (yay space). Later days!

{current mood} Just glad the test is over with but wish I weren't the gum on the bottom of the shoe
{currently reading} Nothing (thank goodness, I've had enough reading for a few days)
{currently watching} Well I'm going to watch Angel, but the japanese student is watching Cinderella so I guess I'm watching Cinderella.
{currently listening} Cinderella, weren't u paying attention?

{Topic}: Cliques and why they suck

more to come

{current mood} Avoiding homework and feeling pretty crappy
{currently reading} Radiographic Positioning (test coming up what do you expect)
{currently watching} Nothing, I'm doing this
{currently listening} "Reading on a Sunday Morning" classical CD